In a tearful interview, Bai Ling recounts what drove her to alcoholism, but did going on “Celebrity Rehab” help her get over her addiction? Plus, why did she think it was important to have her rehabilitation televised?
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Sharing my story to be the voice to help children who are still suffering in the darkness, with love and compassion. Bai Ling
26 June, diffecult sad day for me......
Tonight was my VH1 celebrity Rehab premiered, As sad as I am still now after watching the show and talking with all of you, heart trembling as if I have high fever, touched moved with those beautiful soul whom suffered so much... it brought me back to the sad memories of my childhood in Tibet in the army, so much feelings feel for me for you for all of us, especially that wounded little child inside me, she is so sad so hopeless and so scared that I revealed her, revealed her secret, exposed her nakedness and pain to the public to the entire world, but why do I do this?
I believe there is a higher purpose in life, a greater mission and magic with in each soul, I reveal her to touch lives, to touch hearts, to lend a hand to help those children and us who are still suffering in the darkness, still walk on the edge of the cliff of life so afraid to see the sunlight, still in the dark want to end life, still lonely with no one to share and care, I want to let them know: it is ok what they went though and what had happened to them, I want them to know there is hope, there is someone out there really care for them with great love and compassion and understanding, yes understand their pain, their suffering and wanted to help them heal, I want them to know that they have not been forgotten, they are not alone, beautiful life is still with its open heart and arms welcome them to return with great joy.......
I want to help, I want to share my story to help, If I can even just help one person, make them feel they have not being forgot, they are not alone, then its all worthwhile, I live to help to give, cause I received so much including your love...
I am the voice of the silent... I want to be cause I care! The painful hard life I went through I finally realized is for the great purpose of helping others. I have a gift ,but the gift is not meant for me to keep but to give.
Yes thats why I revealed you --- the little wounded child living hiding inside me, what you are afraid of is the strength and gift to other's soul.
Thank you!
Bai Ling send you LOVE.......
Sharing with you a message I revieved:
Hello Bai,
I left a message on your offical page, however I wanted to share with you again my thoughts on what you've shared on your video blog and your comments after last nights show.
I really appreaciate you Bai. It takes a strong person to open up the very essence and nakedness of their heart, soul and mind to inspire others. Continue to be proud of who you are. Never forget, even if at times you feel alone, you can look up and see that so many (even those who have never met you like myself) do care about you and look for many wonderful things to come your way.
A dear friend of mine is an actress in the Philippines so I know also from knowing her for years, the trials and challenges faced.
You must stay strong, rise up and soar like an eagle and inspire others.
Along the way take all that you experience in life and turn it into something wonderful and creative and spark your inner creativity.
Remember you are not alone and so many do care about you.
Sincerely,
Your new friend
:o)
Mark
Another one:
You are an angel sent by the heavens,
to inpire those of us who are victims of abuse,
thank you for giving me HOPE !
Much Love to a Beautiful Soul !!
A.J
One more:
Very profound and touching. I wish you to find true peace and happiness.
It really was too much for a child to bare.
You are a true inspiration and have great courage. I agree there is a purpose in all things.
Please be gentle and loving to yourself. Your fans love you even though we don't know the real Bai Ling.
I am so sorry for all the suffering you have had to endure.
Wishing you nothing but good things! Believe in yourself.
Life is such a beautiful gift to me - every day and every moment. As I walk my path and breathe the fresh air and shiny lights, I am sharing with U my Love, my Joy, and my exciting, positive, beautiful, and magical world that we call - Life. Yes, everyday I tell myself that I am lucky ... so lucky ... to know that I have you, my dear friends ...
Monday, June 27, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
My life and adventure
My new show premieres 26th June 9pm on VH1 then every Sundays 9pm
Also watch me live on Access Hollywood 29th 11am Wednesday on NBC Channel4
Yes Its been a long time since I post here, cause my mom is here I spend every single day and moment with her, its a joy but also a full time job taking care of her showing her around latrarily, I am her's personal asistant, driver, interpreter, entertainer and cook, but I refuse to cook, cause I just don't cook, can you imagine if I do? Wow I will be going totally insane long time ago, too many jobs, of cause 3 times a day I would have to take her everywhere to eat, in the end looking for place to eat become so difficult cause we have eaten all the restaurants many times around town so I had to drive her like 2 hours somewhere I have never been and heared of just to have a meal, amazing she even found her relatives they have lost in touch and haven't seen each other for 40 years, then the first time my Mom meets them first thing my Mom had said to this charming man was(I don't even know whats the relationship with everyone, can't figure it out, Chinese family are huge)My Mom says: "Wow You are so short!" I was like Mom you don't do that when you first meet someone, but the man was laughing and said: "Well at that time you were so young and small so I look tall."
All of them like 7 or 8 people gathered, eat talk laugh, eat some more and talk some more and then laugh some more, I just constently calling everyone the wrong name and the wrong title, its really funny but my Mom was not happy about it. I sit there with them as if it has nothing to do with me, but after a while I found all the stories are so facinating, at that time the fun and hardship and the tears of you don't know who is going to be gone the next day life in China, they had all forced to be sepreted till now...... sad, but sweet to see how my Mom and all of them were so excited as if the day should and actully did extended just for their joys, I stand in front of the window watched how slow the sun went down that night, yes quietly so beautiful... I was so happy to be just at their servise.
Yes my new car, none of you had guessed right, how come? So I am showing it to you now, I love my new car, its a special order, the seats color one of a kind, very unique, I like new things always, in the car they have all this fancy sports gere and this heating seats that I always love, even the back of your nick, they have this tiny little window that could be heated, so cool, then there is this crazy full gere of navigation system, you could play movie and vedio games even, I am sure I will never fully understand all the cool things in the car, and its super fast, well I still like Red, but after few years its time to change, I would like to drive a shinny bright pink car:)
Yes that painting is Andy warhol's original painting of Chairman Mao.
Mom safely back to China to her happy life, I am sad, first night I refused to go home cause my Mom left, I am not good of saying good bye, remember back in China while I was a child standing in the train station watching the train slowly but surely took my grandmother away is the most sad thing in my life, I cried so hard, I was so small, I run after the train, my grandmother waved her hand in the window, till the speed the space mountians and clouds came in between big shadow......
Don't know those mixed feelings of the family, it is so hard and complicated at times but also so tender touches moves your heart deep, I am such a perfactionist, so I am maybe too responsible therefore I have still no family of my own yet, cause I will not do it only if my heart is totally complately captured, Yes falling in love is the most beautiful thing in the world, you have to be so lucky:)
26th of June is my show premiere on VH1 9pm, I am nervous but also looking forward to it, as I am taking life as a fun and beautiful dangerous adventure, I will take the ride with you to watch me totally emotionally naked to the extreem...lets hope we all learn something from each other, lets hope life shows us beauty, lets hope my adventure shows you: A real woman with Faith, love, courage and honor......
My Mom brought family to me for 2 months, I was suddenly not alone, we shared so many wonderful times, my Mom has a great sence of humor so we laugh a lot, but one day she refused to eat, I was so sad and worried and don't know what to do, but often times she is so sweet, she so wanted me to have a man in my life whom truly understand me appreciate me and trully love who I am.
I told my Mom: " Its going to happen Mom cause I am happily ready."
Also watch me live on Access Hollywood 29th 11am Wednesday on NBC Channel4
Yes Its been a long time since I post here, cause my mom is here I spend every single day and moment with her, its a joy but also a full time job taking care of her showing her around latrarily, I am her's personal asistant, driver, interpreter, entertainer and cook, but I refuse to cook, cause I just don't cook, can you imagine if I do? Wow I will be going totally insane long time ago, too many jobs, of cause 3 times a day I would have to take her everywhere to eat, in the end looking for place to eat become so difficult cause we have eaten all the restaurants many times around town so I had to drive her like 2 hours somewhere I have never been and heared of just to have a meal, amazing she even found her relatives they have lost in touch and haven't seen each other for 40 years, then the first time my Mom meets them first thing my Mom had said to this charming man was(I don't even know whats the relationship with everyone, can't figure it out, Chinese family are huge)My Mom says: "Wow You are so short!" I was like Mom you don't do that when you first meet someone, but the man was laughing and said: "Well at that time you were so young and small so I look tall."
All of them like 7 or 8 people gathered, eat talk laugh, eat some more and talk some more and then laugh some more, I just constently calling everyone the wrong name and the wrong title, its really funny but my Mom was not happy about it. I sit there with them as if it has nothing to do with me, but after a while I found all the stories are so facinating, at that time the fun and hardship and the tears of you don't know who is going to be gone the next day life in China, they had all forced to be sepreted till now...... sad, but sweet to see how my Mom and all of them were so excited as if the day should and actully did extended just for their joys, I stand in front of the window watched how slow the sun went down that night, yes quietly so beautiful... I was so happy to be just at their servise.
Yes my new car, none of you had guessed right, how come? So I am showing it to you now, I love my new car, its a special order, the seats color one of a kind, very unique, I like new things always, in the car they have all this fancy sports gere and this heating seats that I always love, even the back of your nick, they have this tiny little window that could be heated, so cool, then there is this crazy full gere of navigation system, you could play movie and vedio games even, I am sure I will never fully understand all the cool things in the car, and its super fast, well I still like Red, but after few years its time to change, I would like to drive a shinny bright pink car:)
Yes that painting is Andy warhol's original painting of Chairman Mao.
Mom safely back to China to her happy life, I am sad, first night I refused to go home cause my Mom left, I am not good of saying good bye, remember back in China while I was a child standing in the train station watching the train slowly but surely took my grandmother away is the most sad thing in my life, I cried so hard, I was so small, I run after the train, my grandmother waved her hand in the window, till the speed the space mountians and clouds came in between big shadow......
Don't know those mixed feelings of the family, it is so hard and complicated at times but also so tender touches moves your heart deep, I am such a perfactionist, so I am maybe too responsible therefore I have still no family of my own yet, cause I will not do it only if my heart is totally complately captured, Yes falling in love is the most beautiful thing in the world, you have to be so lucky:)
26th of June is my show premiere on VH1 9pm, I am nervous but also looking forward to it, as I am taking life as a fun and beautiful dangerous adventure, I will take the ride with you to watch me totally emotionally naked to the extreem...lets hope we all learn something from each other, lets hope life shows us beauty, lets hope my adventure shows you: A real woman with Faith, love, courage and honor......
My Mom brought family to me for 2 months, I was suddenly not alone, we shared so many wonderful times, my Mom has a great sence of humor so we laugh a lot, but one day she refused to eat, I was so sad and worried and don't know what to do, but often times she is so sweet, she so wanted me to have a man in my life whom truly understand me appreciate me and trully love who I am.
I told my Mom: " Its going to happen Mom cause I am happily ready."
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