The new me with love grace beauty and kind heart for you and always ..........
Fragile our beautiful life, fragile our beautiful soul, yet our smile our laughter on life's journey each step, yes each step no matter how long and how short the road we are walking, it is like the magic sound we revealed like the stars printed on the sky so bright above, each day shines echos with joy like Amy Winhouse's voice forever and ever.......
So many things happening in my life now, with such an excitement life once again give, offering me lights, gifts, joy, sweetness, sadness in comfort loud whispering, in extremes of challenge....... generous heart once again I felt of you of nature, for firmly believing in me to reflect nature's voice and beauty......
Can't know which direction to look, what I should do first, but I know I am on a mission that is so good and positive for me for you and for our beautiful world.
Amy Winehouse found dead today while I was just rolling out of my sweet dream land of the night, yes strangely I don't remember my dreams anymore, I used to have such a terrible scary dreams when I was a child, wild dangerous animals chasing after me while I was running into a dead end or I have to jump into a deep mad ocean, or I was falling so fast so deep into a wooden whole( like you see in those circles show)...... but somehow somewhere, those horrible dreams stopped, they are all gone, like a miracle...... I know its because I embraced them the unknown, the fear in me.
In my journey in those wild places near the edge of death, the hash wind of life, the dangerous road, in the darkness deeply lost in the mysterious mountains of Tibet, something had to emerge breakthrough for me to fight, to shift, to light the very dangerous darkness I was facing everyday, and to live....... yes the spirit world I found in my soul, the light that is so bright it vanished all the shadows I used to see and fear..... I embraced it as a child with only trust, I believed only in my fantastic sweet good dreams, the vision I believed that I am so protected, and my only fortune and life in extreme good, in believing the world is a safe comfort place like a fairytale land for me to live, the universe is my home with only beauty kindness love to nurturing and protect me, to offering a play ground. like my grandmother told me in those hot summer nights in south China, we would sit in the wild nature after supper under the beautiful stars with our heart open with joy, my grandmother would gently one hand waves the large bamboo fan and the other hand holds my little hand in hers and say:
" My little baby, you are an angel to the world, you will only found beautiful gifts wherever you go, and you are safe and protected always..... "
and I laughed so loud and hard and I stopped all those little mischievious ghosts from walking and talking...., yes I took it in what my grandmother said and I simply believed it.
Only when you give everything, believe in it 100%, then you will be able to see and experience with your pure open heart like a child, yes then you will see------ the magic, you will see the world is a magic place shines beautiful lights in every corner you look........
Like many of you I do also have an addicted personality especially with things I love, and love to do, I have never knew alcohol has such a mysterious effect in me with men, with my crazily free sexy imagine of my body and being so open to the world that I believed has only kind eyes toward me, but yet again I have to put a stop sign, I sadly relearned fear, sadly rethink what it is this world if I see through it with a pair of doubt's eyes???
I always liked Amy Winehouse for the reason how free she is always be her, and how open she is with her own truth, and yet how always lost in the struggle to find the world on the other side to keep proving her wrong.....
Wake up my dear friend, no matter what it is your addictions are, fight with it, be brave, look hard to find balance and light in it for you, there is always a better way, like for me, I found my freedom by admit it, by showing you my weakness and by embrace it with kindness of love......
With great sadness My love to Amy Winehouse's family and friends, may she rest in peace.......
Bai Ling
This is my world, I am so lucky to have met all of them those fascinating great artists in the world you about to see in the photos, I had a wonderful time talking with them and knowing them, each of them is a special soul, Yes Amy Winehouse should be here too with us.
Those photos are taken in my trip to London, Thank Prince Azim for his generous invitation to me and give me such a beautiful time.........
lets celebrate life each single day!!!
43 comments:
Beautifully said.
Wow, Amazing photos of you! You are truly the single most Gorgeous/Beautiful woman in the world! Love the pics.
It is sad about Amy Winehouse.
Just remember Cobain sad blue eyes...as he and Laine Stanley preview all over the 90´s "we die young", Alice in chains song. From all the ones that survived to the age of 27 and depression and addictions, my dose of rivotril tonite is 4 you and Amy, for sure.
Rehab
They tried to make me go to rehab
I said no, no, no.
Yes I been black, but when I come back
You wont know, know, know.
I ain’t got the time
And if my daddy thinks I’m fine
He’s tried to make me go to rehab
I wont go, go, go.
I’d rather be at home with ray
I ain’t got 70 days
Cos there’s nothing, nothing you can teach me
That I can’t learn from Mr. Hathaway
Didn’t get a lot in class
But I know it don’t come in a shot glass
They’re tryin to make me go to rehab
I said no, no, no
Yes I been black, but when I come back
You wont know, know, know.
I aint got the time,
And if my Daddy thinks I’m fine,
He’s tried to make me go to rehab,
I wont go, go, go.
The man said, why you think you here?
I said, I got no idea
I’m gonna, I’m gonna loose my baby
So I always keep a bottle near
Said, I just think you’re depressed
Kiss me, yeah baby
And go rest
I’m tryin to make me go to rehab
I said no, no, no
Yes I been black, but when I come back
You wont know, know, know
I don’t ever wanna drink again
I just, ooo, I just need a friend
I’m not gonna spend 10 weeks
Have everyone think I’m on the mend
It’s not just my pride
It’s just til these tears have dried
They’re tryin to make me go to rehab
I said no, no, no
Yes I been black, but when I come back,
You wont know, know, know
I aint got the time,
And if my daddy thinks I’m fine
He’s trying to make me go to rehab
I wont go, go, go.
~ Amy Jade Winehouse
Bai Ling my beautiful friend, Never think that there will ever be a moment when there will not be a thousand hands reaching out to catch you. You are special, and we live thur you, so live fearless and free because we love you.
I'll repeat my previous comment here because it fits better here than in your previous post where
I had placed it
( this new post was not up yet )
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A lesson for all of us to keep in mind:
- today drugs and alcohol have taken down Amy Winehouse.
She was not the first celebrity to get killed by the system that way
...and, sadly enough, she won't be the last one.
my dear bai ling,
your words speak such life within,
such shadow and light within a simple gaze,
this loss today struck deep chords within me too,
amy was such a brilliant dark~bright soul,
so very sad, and i have lost too many childhood
friends from such destructive addictions,
and i do so believe that oft
the most passionate creative spirits
are courted in the darkest realms of the soul
where addiction runs strong
yet some addictions feed us
yet some addictions destroy us
such is the danger of walking those paths
where the heart burns core,
and your shared dreams glimpse of yesteryear
as those tibetan mountains of mystery and myth,
so very far and distant and away,
and the harsh beautiful life lived,
and the shadow spirit
of the jeweled diamond dream realm within,
so much i could say of this and these
so much
as your words and visage evoke such form of depth,
an invocation of tapestry and rich color,
such intense life, such intense passion,
we all have a darkness and lightness within,
the angel and demon within the changing
flowing evolving T’ai Chi mandala,
and yours burns so very strong,
i feel deep raw honest truth in your words
and the subtle little gestures of fire and water,
this, within you, so very dear,
so very tender, so very personal,
you speak a vulnerable sensitivity with courage
and nobility of heart that sings the journey
of your soul upon this realm, the soul alive,
an angel butterfly transforming with a wisp
along the jade path of the leopard alive,
the feline purrs and the night owl hoots
as the moon looms and the stars glitter
as the mountain dragon breathes hidden
in the harbor's mist alive alit awake,
creatures of light and darkness court
such mystic dance aplay afoot
amidst the ancient forgotten lore
where such legends come bidden
as dreams fill the night within
a phoenix rising from the ashes
and such flame burns to the core,
we listen and taste with eyes awash
to kindle a secret smile
within a joyous tear,
and in the Xiaolin myth
the dragon mated with the phoenix
and gave birth to mankind ~
... my dear bai ling ...
~ ArthurPoet ~
Lets see if this comment will get past your censorship.
The previous time you did not post it, maybe because you did not like me wondering about those Twitter fans you have who don't come to your Blog to leave comments.
Here we go:
You have so many Twitter fans, but hardly any of them come here to leave you a comment.
Comments written here on your Blog are meant to last while those on Twitter will eventually get erased and vanish.
I wonder why these people prefer the ephemeral world of Twitter instead...
BAI LING, talking about addiction...
... have you taken up smoking cigarettes, or were those pictures of you smoking just for the photos ??
I still don't think that you should be so proud showing yourself sitting on the former throne of Saddam Hussein.
Take down that photo.
Many people in Iraq still long for the days when he was ruling that country with an iron fist even if he was a bloody sadistic ditator.
Afte all, he is dead now and we should let the dead alone.
Besides... look at it this way -
how would you like to see a foreign actress and foreing soldiers sit on the throne of the Chinese Emperor in the Forbidden City in Beijing ?
You are awesome, Bai Ling. Thank you, for your kind words of encouragement. Life is fragile and we lost Amy Winehouse, a great artist. My prayers, to the family. Sadly, I lost my aunt a couple of hours ago. A gentle soul. Thanks for your precious words. Will keep in touch, while in New York. Much Love. Your friend, Michael...福
your words can be inspiration for those who are trying to find the magic again in their lives. I don't think I have ever her your friend Amy's music. My daughter commented how strange all these musicians dying so young at 27...Jim Morrison...Jimi Hendrix...
who knows why they had to leave this world so young?
please keep writing
I am blessed to have had both you and dear Amy as my friend in my life xxx
You asked on facebook, "Why are people so mean?" My opinion: It doesn't matter. Be like water running in a dry creek bed. When something gets in your way, go around it, build up strength to go over it, or really take your time and when the moment is right, push it out of the way. But don't think about the why of the obstructions...just how to go forward.
Ling is beautiful.
i have read alot of support for you and thats good to have that but the decision to change is yours and yours alone. something you told you that you needed to change the things that are hurting you. yes its good to have support but all that aside, it is you that has made the decision and it is you that is stronger than you know for that. support is great everyone needs it but its your self support tellingyourself you want to that is the main reason. doing it for yourself shows the true strength of a person. always know that it is what is in you that makesyou strong. I know you hve had a hard life and it was hard on you in china i know this, you have things inside that no one knows but you. thats fine, but doing it because you know and want to is the true reason you are a stronger person more now than ever.
i have read alot of support for you and thats good to have that but the decision to change is yours and yours alone. something you told you that you needed to change the things that are hurting you. yes its good to have support but all that aside, it is you that has made the decision and it is you that is stronger than you know for that. support is great everyone needs it but its your self support tellingyourself you want to that is the main reason. doing it for yourself shows the true strength of a person. always know that it is what is in you that makesyou strong. I know you hve had a hard life and it was hard on you in china i know this, you have things inside that no one knows but you. thats fine, but doing it because you know and want to is the true reason you are a stronger person more now than ever.
*** Bai Ling wrote on FB: "wow scary tonight's show, I bare your soul and scars in front so many people"
scary, but life is often scary, especially when we walk a path of truth, but that same fire of truth warms and nurtures the soul to life, and you are so very full of life,
and as Vincent Van Gogh once said:
"what would life be like, if we had no courage to attempt anything?"
... yes, you are so very passionately fiery alive, and so very full of bold courage, to bear your soul and the scars within for all to see, this speaks worlds about the courage of heart that lives within your path ~ the metal within your spirit doth shine bright, dear Bai Ling ~
i have read alot of support for you and thats good to have that but the decision to change is yours and yours alone. something you told you that you needed to change the things that are hurting you. yes its good to have support but all that aside, it is you that has made the decision and it is you that is stronger than you know for that. support is great everyone needs it but its your self support tellingyourself you want to that is the main reason. doing it for yourself shows the true strength of a person. always know that it is what is in you that makesyou strong. I know you hve had a hard life and it was hard on you in china i know this, you have things inside that no one knows but you. thats fine, but doing it because you know and want to is the true reason you are a stronger person more now than ever.
Ride a bike .. Really pedal it is magic ! Pedal it clears your mind ! pedal it makes you strong ! Pedal it raises your spirit ! Pedal it makes you look good ! Pedal it will save you and bring great times ! Pedal pedal pedal it brings the magic of being young no matter how many years you have been on the ride of life !
Pedalist
Stephen Crawley
lets ride
You are brave and courageous. I admire you for facing the truth. You never have to go back to that life again. As you heal from your experience, you will help others heal as well.
Life is much better on this side. <3
You are very courageous! You faced it! Now you don't ever have to go back to that life again. Unfortunately, Amy could not. One day at a time recovery works. Your recovery gives me hope. <3
RealBaiLing I dont smoking, I only do it when I play a character, when I play a character I give all my heart everything I have, I love art @WEALLHOPE
7 minutes ago via web in reply to WEALLHOPE
WEALLHOPE @RealBaiLing Thank you BAI LING, nice to know that, that you don't smoke - that's another lesson you give to all of us - Now I must go -kiss
less than 5 seconds ago via web in reply to RealBaiLing
Celebrity Rehab Ep. 5 - Wreckage From The Past [full episode]
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Driving around at night ?
So, they managed to fix you car or are you with a replaement one ?
I have mixed feelings and mixed thoughts when BAI LING says she forgives those top PLA officers who sexually abused of her when she was 14 years old in Tibet in the army.
Maybe someone should explain to her what is the Stockholm syndrome and how it works.
But on the other hand one should consider the very delicate and politically sensitive situation that could develop out of what BAI LING has told to the public.
If some special bureau of the PRC's Army wanted to get to the bottom of things, then they could trace back in time who was where and when doing what...
...and maybe someone would risk facing detention or even a firing squad for abuse of power and foR harming the image of the PLA.
I'm not saying that this will ever happen, nor that they would have any special interest in doing so unless a very embarrassing scandal broke out on the media.
BAI LING is no longer an anonymous peasant girl that can be brushed aside and ignored.
All these are consideations we must keep in mind when BAI LING reveals tragic moments of her youth.
These are toughts which must have crossed her mind, these and those of her family still living in China, that kept her from disclosing them for so long a time.
It takes courage, yes, lots of courage.
And yes, let me than blogger 57358 for putting up the Celeb. Rehab clip one his site, that is the only way I can get to see it since
VH1 is not shown over here.
I am a fan of your work, and I admire your spirit! You are a strength to women all around!
Truly,
Tara :)
I am a fan of your work, and I admire your spirit! You are a strength to women all around!
~Tara~ :)
p.s. the screen name is in reference to my hair :D
Gosh, you are beautiful! Keep hanging in there. Your words are lovely.
Gosh, you are so beautiful. Keep on keeping on. You are an inspiration and a survivor.
Hope you are hanging in there good to hear from you I spent weekend biking & swimming great times great to be alive ! Superior Mind & body makes a nice matched set ! It feels good to be at peace with ones-self took about 35 years to get there for me but I can truly state I have figured it out and last 15 years or so I truly enjoy the ride of life ! ... Go for a bike ride with me one day Bai ? Hey I know probably not , but believe me next time you get a chance to pedal about on a bike do it ! The inner light of your soul the one we get as young kids that dies out in to many people will light up I promise ! You will be smiling and think Holy shit that Stephen dude was correct that was FUN ... think I'll do it again tomorrow !!!!! Rock on Kid !
You're like a rainbow !
Stephen (Crawleykakes) Crawley !
time for a bike ride
wishing you a beautiful day filled with love,laughter,and passion.
Hello Bai,
I hope you are having a great week so far.
Regarding your blog, I can say life always throws challenges and trials our way. But if we have faith and appreciation for all that is around us in life and those that are a part of our life then things will be fine.
The decisions we all make, right or wrong, as long as they are made from the heart will reflect our constant growth and development as we live each day to the fullest.
I'd like to think that what I do in my career, and how I live my life may be a positive example to others who may see me, even if they dont know me. Perhaps I can inspire others too. :o)
I know you understand and value those you meet and enounter in your life along with your known family, friends and loved ones :o)
Thank you again Bai for your friendship.
The growth of a real, sincere friendship with you is something I never take for granted and what time you make for me I sincerely appreicate :o)
Hope to hear from you soon.
Sincerely,
Mark
I've been holding this comment back for days and days, but now that you have recovered from your skin rash and since you are feeling better now, I'll go back to my silly self again and release this comment.
Did you like your helicopeter ride over England ?
Did you know that the helicopter you flew in is ITALIAN ??
Yep, no kidding.
AgustaWestland is an Italian builder of helicopters, see:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/AgustaWestland
AgustaWestland is now a wholly owned subsidiary of Finmeccanica of Italy.
A Chinese gal in an Italian helicopter hovering over southern England....
( Someone we both knew will catch the irony of this )
Not to miss - nope, not to miss:
Bai Ling receives film festival award on The EZ Show
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bYbcHn9divw&NR=1
i have always thought you were the cat's meow. just beyond beautiful
your beauty is just a reflection of your inner beauty, strength, and compassion. you are a light in a very dark world.
It makes me feel sad and pensive when I think of Amy Winehouse. Despite what people used to say about her, I still think that she was a beautiful person inside.
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And to answer your question, Ms. White, I think you're as pretty as before your transformation. Pretty inside and outside! You're a great person. We love you ! Qin Qin !
I love the smiley tshirt, it is very cute on you. You are very brave and an inspiration to me.
I love your happy tee shirt. You are so brave and such an inspiration to me.
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