I am so Excited for my life, my new life!!!
Exhausted so exhausted!!! I finally got sick After my 3 weeks of shooting I am for some reason so exhausted as if I went for a long long trip somewhere in a dreamland lost in Tibet? somewhere far Back in time or in the far future?
Went to sleep at 6:40pm Woke up at 3:13am, the world is so quite as if I still in where I was for the last 3 weeks, had a dream that I thought I remembered but I forgot now, changes made in me to my surprise for the brightest future, but still the wound is open heart is open, I need time and soft love to heal, heal the place that is so vulnerible (spell?) yet beautiful. people say things don't kill you will make you stronger, but I don't want to be stronger instead I want to feel the feelings the pain the changing of joy like a river flouting up and down unknown......
This last 3 weeks I cried so much so much I haven't for years, but just like the beautiful rain from nature, it washes the dust leave the earth once again pure and tender for new dreams to emerge......
I know a lot of you think I was stupid to do the show, I thought it too at first, I did not want to do it for a long time, but I then believed always there is a reason for everything when opportunities come my way, yes the universe sees more clearly about me than I do, and sometimes I just have to trust and fallow even if I do not know why or what it will be. I am so glad I did it and just for me, one cannot say or know if you are not in it, but for me in a strange way I have found ME, the beautiful me that I have lost... I have learned so much about me, the braveness, the tenderness, the courage to finally realized that I have to stop what I was doing cause it could be a real danger to kill me on my journey.
Life teach me in a indirect way, it is so painful but for the better and I so am grateful.
Those past 3 weeks lost dark confused days and nights, outside world has depatured lost, lost its attraction its power its allur, left me just the naked me and my shadow with the soft light of the tender moon, yes it is because of all I went through, life brought the new fresh me back to re-enter you, re-enter you in a new light, re-enter the universe with me realizing my real gifts, re-enter Hollywood as an gifted actress to challenge the roles yet to come, re-entering you as a loving caring human being. Yes I believe, I have faith, and I know when I do when I have faith in the true me that delicate beautiful white flower smiling in the hush sand storms in Tibet, I then have light, I then shine the magic of lights I then shine the magic of life......
You will know what I am saying when you watch the show, you will know the part of me that you did not know, and you will learn about life.
It was extreamely painful expierence, sad powerful yet with great hope and determination, I shared so many my stories that they are always a secret to me, I lucked them inside for so long so deep, but I suddenly have opened the door opened them as a window, I took the difficult step and I challenged me, and I want those stories to challenge you too!!!
I want me to love me as once you loved me, I want you to love me only as this gifted actress and this loving caring intelligent woman you once loved from " Red Corner ", god send me down as an angel to walk on a difficult path just to show you: faith love courage and horner, I must horner that.
Thoughts passsing me by like the lovely pink clouds once again landing flying, spring has openned its wings smiling with its pure open joy, I will soon find the me close my wound and with my heart still wide open to finally find my art my life that is belong to me and so needed my love......
Excited for the new me, excited for my new road new work and new love......
What about you my friend?
Cookie 4U: Take Chances!!!
Sadness like the rain yesterday cring for the lost of our bright star: Elizabeth Taylor
Life is such a beautiful gift to me - every day and every moment. As I walk my path and breathe the fresh air and shiny lights, I am sharing with U my Love, my Joy, and my exciting, positive, beautiful, and magical world that we call - Life. Yes, everyday I tell myself that I am lucky ... so lucky ... to know that I have you, my dear friends ...
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I love the way you express your feelings in this blog post! THANK-YOU so much for sharing!
Life itself is a process of learning and re-learning. Life is relentless.
If more people could just "flow" along the river time, like YOU do, Ms. Bai-Ling, the world would be a better place.
Glad to see that what you went through will help you move forward.
Life is a learning experience. None of are perfect, but its also how you live your life that counts.
Elizabeth Taylor was asked how she would like to be remembered, and given the troubles of her personal life, the ups and downs, she said: I lived.
And you Bai are one that lives life. And yes, lets see you in another great role like in Red Corner.
Daisies ...flowers
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Dandelions ....flowers
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Daisies and Dandelions ...these flowers greeted me this morning when I went out to work, what a most pleasant surprise.
Spring has sprung - with all its beauty.
There is a playground and a small park right in front of my house
( a rather rare situation for someone living here in the city )
and this morning I noticed that all the green grass plots were covered with white daisies and yellow dandelions that had sprung up so suddenly. So many of them.
It was a gorgeous sight to see those colors of green, white, and yellow.
The confimation that Spring was here.
My statistical mind got hold of me so I started to count the density of dandelions in a sample plot of 10 meters by 2 meters and came up with 40 dandelions. The daisies were even more numerous...and there were also innumerable numbers of tiny violet colored flowers I don't know the name of -Now imagine a couple hundred meters of garden like that and you get the picture.
Coming back home tonight I saw that all those flowers had closed up for the night.
The went to sleep at sunset.
Flowers are smater than us who stay up too late at night ?
Am I a FLY or a BEE ??
...a FLY should look for turds and not flowers... insect identity crisis - it must be caused by the arrival of Spring. lol
Well done BAI LING this new post without any photos - it makes us concentrate on what you are saying without being distracted by images and photos.
There is always time for those futher on.
Which reminds me... your book ?
A question:
will you be going to the French Film Festival Premières in Hollywood COLCOA April 11-18 ?
http://www.colcoa.org/2011/home/index.asp
psss... I forgot to tell you, the leaves of dandelion plants make very good, healthy, and tasty salads.
But I did not go picking any tender leaves from the green grass plots today - maybe next time ?
Will you be going to the French Film Premierès in Hollywood April 11-18 COLCOA ?
http://www.colcoa.org/2011/home/index.asp
我做的一切，就像发条
Bai Ling as Qiu in Taxi 3
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Pretty little Ling, we don't stop loving you for those silly things.
Me, I think of you as Kuan Yin in the Monkey movie.
Kuan Yin: infinite compassion, grasping nothing.
BAI LING, in your before to last Twitter message you said: Take chances!!
Ok I'll take my chances with you.
Tonight on Italian TV at 23:20 Sky Cinema Max they are going to broadcast once again :
L'Angolo Rosso = RED CONER
- seems like Italians enjoy good movies.
http://www.mymovies.it/tv/skycinemamax/stasera/
click on the trailer
... but I won't be at home to watch it - I'm going out tonight.
Can you forgive me for that ?
You know, I've already seen it an N-th number of times.
( risking my little FLY's butt here with BAI LING )
hey bai -great site! hey not sure if u remember me, i met u at primo in taipei 2 yrs ago and we took a pic. i just found that pic; id love to send it to you somehow! best of luck!
hey bai-great site! not sure if you remember me but i had met u in taipei at primo 2 yrs ago. we took a picture together and i just found it. looks good and would love to send it to u somehow. best of luck to you!
BAI LING, you asked us for a joke.
Waiter, there is a fly in my soup! Sorry sir, maybe I’ve forgotten it when I removed the other three...
( little Daniel FLY is with you )
Oh, yes, nearly forgot to tell you -
right now on Italian Tv Cinema Max Sunday morning 11:05 they are reboadasting L'Angolo Rosso =
RED CONER
Yep, Italy goes for good movies...
http://www.mymovies.it/tv/skycinemamax/
( needless to say, I'm watching it right now after having skipped the first broadcasting last night ...diligent little FLY here )
http://www.mymovies.it/tv/skycinemamax/
- this is the link advertising RED CONER for today -the other one was last night
Hi Bai,very touching and beautiful words.
I hope you have found the new you within yourself.
Good luck and believe in yourself........
Spring season is beautiful, but it has its drawbacks too .... why did all those birds in the trees outside have to wake me up so early this morning by singing so loud ?
I swear, there must be hundreds of them, and it is only 04:30 AM.
Oh well, better them than being awakened by a loud motorcyle passing by.
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